“He is not the one for you” , her grandmother told her while opening door for her.
She could feel her temper rising, ” How can you say that ?”
The old lady took a seat next to her ” Tell me, did he ever try to surprise you?,
Is he possessive ?
Does he value your presence?”
Her mind bell rang a big NO .
She knew he was not the perfect guy for her,
yet she wanted him back because they would be happy together.
I don’t know when we will meet next , he thought while taking a puff of the cigarette.
She had given him something to remember her forever, an ashtray.
“Why didn’t you tell me about it ?” he asked her.
“I have stopped wasting my energy on things that don’t matter”, was her reply.
I went home and knew she would be waiting for me.Just as I unlocked the door she cried “meow” out of nowhere, ran towards me.
A few years after , he left her
“Hey, how are you doing”? he asked her.
“Better than before”, she replied.
“Why can’t we be together?” he asked her.
“Because it’s better to stay apart and being in love than to be near and feel the pain”, she replied.
Where did we go wrong?
Could I not give you enough love?
Or did you never feel it for me?
When did we start diverging?
Was it a month back ?
Or did you never give into me ?
Was there no apathy?
What if I stop calling and sending those texts?
What if I stop holding the last string between us?
Will you tie it up for us ?
Will you give us a chance ,when we need it?
I’m not sure about it anymore.
She knew she would lose again, that’s why this time she didn’t put up any hope , only to get back where she started .
Had you stopped me once, I wouldn’t have left,
I wish you would turn back, you could my tears,
A simple “how are you “? is not that tough-
I didn’t ask for gifts, a bit of your care would be fine,
But I knew that would never be coming from you,
You were happy once your needs were seen to,
How I wish you would love me, the way I loved you,
My face is called pretty by the masses,
None think of loving it, they know I can manage,
It’s not always possible to manage alone,
How I wish you would hold my hand forever.