They told me to cry, I couldn’t
They said you will never be back,
I tried but couldn’t feel,
Was my mind so strong, not letting me break,
Anticipation perhaps is my answer,
My soul was already lost, when you were done
I knew you wouldn’t be back,
So I let my soul free to roam with you.
Every moment, I turned my back
Dark alleys and rusty buildings adored my sight,
I could feel someone close to me,
But my eyes chose not to see
How long did you keep me company I don’t know,
The faint cologne was unmistakably your love to show;
I know you were there ever moment;
To know I was safe , not being poisoned.
Some might say too simple of a flower,
Rings and necklaces got the better share;
Neither am I an agent to think, nor do I care,
Love for me is smooth, with simple gifts to shower.
She walked past him without calling him back. He was the most handsome person for her once, but now she could only see him as an average man, for whom she bore no feelings.
For her he was just any other man from the crowd.
Is it the smile or the smirk?
The eyes or brows’ arch,
You just made a mark,
Forever in my heart.
“So will you be doing that “? she asked him
“Do what “? he asked her while turning a page of their old wedding album .
“Did you even listen to anything I said”? she enquired with a scowl
“Umm…Actually no”, he replied like a kid caught with a candy.
“Then what were you doing while I was ranting the list “, she asked him almost fuming now.
He knew how to calm her, “I was just trying to understand, how a woman could look so beautiful and yet retain for the past 40 years”.
A smile slowly crept up her lips and she gave a small peck on his cheek.
“Care to tell me , when is your birthday”? he asked while skimming the jeans’ which had been showcased in the women’s section.
“Day after tomorrow”, she replied and then after a pause” But why are you asking ? You wouldn’t be able to attend it right”?
“Ah this one “, he exclaimed finding the right one for her “What happened”? she asked , concerned for him.
“Uh well I am buying vegetables”, he said to cover ” Now, to answer your previous question, yes I will attend”.
” But I will be able to “, she cut him off ” do it alone “, he completed for her.
” I know you can do it, but behind that facade of a strong woman , there’s a little girl ” , he could hear her sigh ” who , my dear, wants someone to hold her hand while she cuts her cake, to sing a birthday song for her”, he said while passing the jeans along with other goods to the woman standing in the counter section ” And I want to be that someone”, he could imagine her smile. 😊
“What’s on the menu today “? he asked her while grabbing an apple from the fruit basket.
“Well I am not sure,” she replied walking towards the fridge ,” let’s check out the ingredients first”.
He couldn’t help but smile and shake his head, ” darling are you ever sure of anything”? he asked casually, helping her with chopping onions.
“Yes”, she turned to look at him “I am and will always be sure of being with you “.
“It must have been serendipity, that we met ,” he told “I wasn’t sure whether you will stay”?
“But you still had a strong belief on us”, she replied as he tucked a Pansy on her Grey hair.
Sometimes I turn up to be so busy, that one moment I remember I’m missing her and the next , I have tasks to complete. Is it proper that I didn’t shed tears while mourning or is it good enough for me to shed them now? I don’t know either will help me stop avoid that feeling of emptiness some where.But as life goes on the next moment may I will reach some where, she thought I should be.