Escape

Someone to critique me, whenever I’m wrong,

Somebody who isn’t judgmental

You seem to be sweet at times-

Uncaring of what I might feel,

The next instant you turn cold

Everything seems to dissolve at once;

So what I do is move away from you

It helps me escape my emotions,

Turn them latent for the time being;

Yet your face, flashes out of nowhere

Breaking the barrier of my  mind.

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I see you

I don’t miss you now .
Appreciating the distance separating us ,
I feel for you the same ,
There’s no one else I care for ,
You are the one whom I can see ,
Everywhere i turn its only you ;
The bond between us is stronger now .

Stop

Consider asking me to return ,
Like a slow breeze I shall flow to you,
There would be no turning back,
But you never wanted me ;
So there was never any reason –
For you to stop me .

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Unsure

I don’t know what it is ,
Can’t name the relationship –
Along with it there are feelings attached ,
Feelings unreciprocable for others ,
Only you are the one for me –
Yet I’m unsure what to call it .

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A game of pronouns

I can’t take it anymore. I know you want to be with you forever but the circumstances aren’t helping. I thought whatever feelings were there between us was love. It was a mistake and I’m extremely sorry for that.
You said I would change,  you were right I did change , unfortunately it isn’t for your good. I started liking him,  though there are no advances from his part. But my thoughts about our relationship did falter a bit. If my feelings for yoy would be that strong , I wouldn’t even dare think about him. Alas!  nothing can be done regarding this situation. Though you want me to try thinking again,  but its not a pain which time can heal. Nor should you play the false notion that I broke up because of him. No I didn’t, I did it because there’s no purpose of me in this relation. I did it because, I know I don’t love you. It had been a long term infatuation where I was trying to tame my mind into falling for you. There are things which are meant to happen but ours is not one of them.

P.s. A story which all my readers can relate to their own lives. ūüėÄ

Is it love?

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“Niya what are you staring at? “, Rehan asked her. ” Umm its nothing “, she no longer could hide her feelings for him.
They had been friends for more than year. In fact she has one of world’s most loving boyfriend,¬† yet she can’t understand the current situation of her traitorous heart, which seems to pull her towards Rehan. “Look at me Niya”, he raised her chin,¬† while she was trying to shy away from the question ” why were you staring at me for the past few minutes if its nothing? Tell me “.
Niya looked into his eyes with her big brown eyes.Whatever will she say him to stop questioning,¬† even she didn’t know the answer to this weird situation. Finally having given up on her body and mind,¬† she decided to tell him about her feelings perhaps he can help, she thought. ” From the past few months I have been attracted towards you,¬† not in the friends kinda way,¬† its more in the romantic side “.
Well now her confession was done but both her palm were dripping with sweat. When Rehan didn’t answer her she felt a blow to her chest,¬† the friendship which she maintained for a year without revealing her interests was about to crumble. ” How is it possible?¬† You have a boyfriend remember? ” he spoke bringing her out of the reverie.¬† ” I know,¬† that’s what has me confused,¬† I know I care for “, she stopped mid sentence when did love turn into care. ” I know I’m confused and I need your help here”, she pleaded.

Now readers it’s your turn to decided whether Niya is really in love with this guy,¬† if so then are her feelings for her boyfriend deceptive?¬† Please answer in your comments.

Independence

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Carrying out a fallacy called love,
Everyday I move on without dignity
Lost it when I told you “Yes”;
The three syllables made me lose myself,
Living in an independent country, 
Am I really independent?

The first mistake of bowing down to you
How badly do I desire for a death wish now,
It’s you I wish to kill
A death wish for you,
But will I be independent after that?

The society epitomized me obedient,
I let them see the woman you want me to be –
Lest I stop fulfilling your wishes,
Turning their back they’ll call me names
Will that be my independence? Never.

Reconnect

Difficulties unknown,  surrounds our lives

The path we follow is crux –

Loosely maneuvered decisions created the wall;

Our minds distrustful holds us apart,

Intense sunlight cannot heat up our chilled relation,

It is only us who can fill the void.

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©Paramita

Is she hiding something from you?

You are in a relationship for a few years and have taken her for granted. But what if she meets a person who shows more interested in her than you? Have you ever thought of that?¬† I don’t think so or even if you have,¬† you may not have had the time to think it over.

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Now question no.1 Does she love you?
Hell yeah,¬† Otherwise she wouldn’t be spending her time with you.

Question no.2 Is she hiding something from you?  Are those her little achievements which she shares with her friends?
Definitely because you are not  interested in them.

So,  the question is why?

At some point in your relationship she might have stopped speaking to you about the important events of her life. If she’s a performer or something,¬† you definitely should come to know this from the subtle hints she provided,¬† she might have told you “I’m busy tonight ” .Now don’t take this the other way,¬† she’s not busy with someone else,¬† rather its her job keeping her awake till late hours. She’s moving towards success.
And if you ask me why she didn’t spell it out to you -” A woman doesn’t always speak her mind,¬† man “. You gotta dig it out from

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Next comes the phase when a colleague or another friend of her starts praising her (provided¬† she’s really good with it ). The encouragement she wanted from you,¬† she gets it from someone else. This is the final chance for you to intervene ans get her back.

What to do —-
1 Get acquainted –
First of all get acquainted with her line of work or whatever she’s interested in. Suppose she’s a small time author or poet,¬† then you must read her works or follow her blog,¬† to keep yourself updated about her latest ventures. If she’s in the marketing business you can simply ask her the latest developments going on in her job and her contribution in it.¬† If you don’t know much about her profession then just ask her about she’ll be happy to fill you in with the tidbits.

2. Talk to her about your profession –
Make it a habit to talk to her about your job. It will keep you stress free.¬† If you do that she’ll do it too. She’ll be open to about her line of work and Speak to you about her problems .

3. Encouragement –
Now that she’s open to you don’t forget to encourage her during her trials.¬† Make it a habit for the lifetime.¬†
Women are mostly introvert, they may never ask for encouragement,  acknowledgement etc. But their partners must give it to them once in a while.

©Paramita