Something amiss

Amidst  the celebrations something always remains amiss

Can’t understand what I’m missing -your greetings or the morning kiss?

Nothing can replace the love that you had for me,

Yet I try to find that in fragments from people , which in their eyes I get to see.

I pray to lord you look over as my angel from the sky;

For without it I will not be able to imagine a destination beautiful and high.

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Lies

She didn’t know how to stop her feelings,

Something felt heavy in her chest,

Air being torn away from her lungs,

Was it what he said?

Did he not love her a tad bit?

Just took whatever he wanted from her body-

He felt she deserved better;

Why couldn’t he realise it before asking her out,

Before making her fall for him,

Or was it because she wasn’t that good-

She was confused, what did she lack in?

Wanting her wellness her first lover stepped away,

Could he not realise how hurt she would be?

Yet she stayed strong , her mind wandered ;

May be the face didn’t allure him,

She tried a make over, yet everything went futile,

This went on, until he came ad she was ready to move on,

Yet since it was her life, all her hopes went crushing again,

She realised may be her body did allure men,

But it was never her heart, she was meant to be a trollop,

A woman who couldn’t be loved,

Yes, she didn’t show it, but her heart cried ;

Promised not to make her cry, yet weren’t these promises all lies.sad-woman-looking-out-window1

 

 

Guilty or not

 

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I’m trying to move on, trying to be happy;

You told me I deserved a better man, to be loved

The job is really tedious, makes me feel sick,

Yet I’m trying quite hard to make it work-

I feel guilty though, because I still see you ,

I can see an imprint of you on him , guilt rises within me;

Feels like I cheated on you and him,

Did the guilt eat up as well, when you had me , but were with her?

 

No arguments

 

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I followed each word you said,

You were right , relationship is not important-

I have had a bad history with relationships,

Agreeing with you was easy;

Just wanted a connection with you,

Something very special only meant for us;

You said you were not ready to commit

Might have been fine with someone else,

But my curious little brain couldn’t accept the false facet,

Yet I allowed you to leave without arguments;

Is it only who couldn’t tolerate a relationship?

Because you were already attached with one.

Can I stop missing you?

I don’t know where you are,

Star gazing makes me feel you staring down

at me;

You told me how you missed your mommy,

I can feel it now, because I miss

you too-

At times I hustle with things,

I wish you were there to help me,hear

me out,

Papa is much gentler just you were ,

He is a friend now and much less a

dominating figure,

I knows he tries to shower all his love

He tries not to make me ,

miss you,

But I do every moment without you-

I guess ,I can never stop missing

you mommy.

Escape

Someone to critique me, whenever I’m wrong,

Somebody who isn’t judgmental

You seem to be sweet at times-

Uncaring of what I might feel,

The next instant you turn cold

Everything seems to dissolve at once;

So what I do is move away from you

It helps me escape my emotions,

Turn them latent for the time being;

Yet your face, flashes out of nowhere

Breaking the barrier of my  mind.

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Little messages

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She was happy that he sent her a “Good Morning ” message without her sending taking the initiative this time .
But he sent the message to all his contacts .Though she knew that , she was happy because -a person who was hopelessly in love with a guy ( that is her ) , a simple message from him meant a lot .

Broken Forever

I’m doing this after a long time, sorry for the break guys.I missed you all. Here’s a short poem, which came to my mind oneday after I woke up from a nightmare.

I woke up to be left alone again,

YOu were now where to be seen,

I know things always didn’t side with me

Nor are they going to now-

But there was not even a single tear to shed

No more can you invade my heart, break it;

Its broken, broken forever, far beyond repair

And I’m not going to mend it for anyone else

There’s no need for anyone to break it again.

It’s not a toy to be broken again and again;

I put on the facet of a strong lady

But it really hurts bad inside and I can’t whimp;

Whining is not my style , so what do I do?

Stay broken forever.