Guilty or not

 

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I’m trying to move on, trying to be happy;

You told me I deserved a better man, to be loved

The job is really tedious, makes me feel sick,

Yet I’m trying quite hard to make it work-

I feel guilty though, because I still see you ,

I can see an imprint of you on him , guilt rises within me;

Feels like I cheated on you and him,

Did the guilt eat up as well, when you had me , but were with her?

 

No arguments

 

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I followed each word you said,

You were right , relationship is not important-

I have had a bad history with relationships,

Agreeing with you was easy;

Just wanted a connection with you,

Something very special only meant for us;

You said you were not ready to commit

Might have been fine with someone else,

But my curious little brain couldn’t accept the false facet,

Yet I allowed you to leave without arguments;

Is it only who couldn’t tolerate a relationship?

Because you were already attached with one.

Can I stop missing you?

I don’t know where you are,

Star gazing makes me feel you staring down

at me;

You told me how you missed your mommy,

I can feel it now, because I miss

you too-

At times I hustle with things,

I wish you were there to help me,hear

me out,

Papa is much gentler just you were ,

He is a friend now and much less a

dominating figure,

I knows he tries to shower all his love

He tries not to make me ,

miss you,

But I do every moment without you-

I guess ,I can never stop missing

you mommy.

Escape

Someone to critique me, whenever I’m wrong,

Somebody who isn’t judgmental

You seem to be sweet at times-

Uncaring of what I might feel,

The next instant you turn cold

Everything seems to dissolve at once;

So what I do is move away from you

It helps me escape my emotions,

Turn them latent for the time being;

Yet your face, flashes out of nowhere

Breaking the barrier of my  mind.

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Little messages

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She was happy that he sent her a “Good Morning ” message without her sending taking the initiative this time .
But he sent the message to all his contacts .Though she knew that , she was happy because -a person who was hopelessly in love with a guy ( that is her ) , a simple message from him meant a lot .

Broken Forever

I’m doing this after a long time, sorry for the break guys.I missed you all. Here’s a short poem, which came to my mind oneday after I woke up from a nightmare.

I woke up to be left alone again,

YOu were now where to be seen,

I know things always didn’t side with me

Nor are they going to now-

But there was not even a single tear to shed

No more can you invade my heart, break it;

Its broken, broken forever, far beyond repair

And I’m not going to mend it for anyone else

There’s no need for anyone to break it again.

It’s not a toy to be broken again and again;

I put on the facet of a strong lady

But it really hurts bad inside and I can’t whimp;

Whining is not my style , so what do I do?

Stay broken forever.