Change in your behavior,
I get possessive like anything,
Yet you don’t understand how I feel,
I get angry not for your faults,
But others who try offending you,
I trust you,
But not them who are close to you.
You may think I’m crazy,
I’m crazy only for you.
You were angry I knew not why,
Reasons were boundless, I couldn’t guess
But what made me happy was your concern,
You were angry, “You wanted to know if I’m OK”.
Picture Credits: alamy.com
I’m trying to move on, trying to be happy;
You told me I deserved a better man, to be loved
The job is really tedious, makes me feel sick,
Yet I’m trying quite hard to make it work-
I feel guilty though, because I still see you ,
I can see an imprint of you on him , guilt rises within me;
Feels like I cheated on you and him,
Did the guilt eat up as well, when you had me , but were with her?
I followed each word you said,
You were right , relationship is not important-
I have had a bad history with relationships,
Agreeing with you was easy;
Just wanted a connection with you,
Something very special only meant for us;
You said you were not ready to commit
Might have been fine with someone else,
But my curious little brain couldn’t accept the false facet,
Yet I allowed you to leave without arguments;
Is it only who couldn’t tolerate a relationship?
Because you were already attached with one.
We started working on it,
The road it went smooth, at times rough surfaces erupted;
You told me it can’t always be a plain polished surface to walk on-
Never knew how positive you were that day,
I had no idea , when did our path begin to bifurcate;
Stormy days and nights would lead to wreckage.
One bright sunny day it was only me standing alone,
For miles I couldn’t see you or the point of bifurcation.
How long has it been , you called?
A month , year , can’t recall that .
The withering leaves reminds me ,
Isn’t life the same way, escaping slowly
Today I took an oath , not to forget you ;
But be myself around you ,
A person who might creep you out ,
A sarcastically cold hearted person ;
Who will not sweet mouth your faults –
No mistakes will be tolerated .
Its up to you now , how long will you hold .
I don’t know where you are,
Star gazing makes me feel you staring down
You told me how you missed your mommy,
I can feel it now, because I miss
At times I hustle with things,
I wish you were there to help me,hear
Papa is much gentler just you were ,
He is a friend now and much less a
I knows he tries to shower all his love
He tries not to make me ,
But I do every moment without you-
I guess ,I can never stop missing
Someone to critique me, whenever I’m wrong,
Somebody who isn’t judgmental
You seem to be sweet at times-
Uncaring of what I might feel,
The next instant you turn cold
Everything seems to dissolve at once;
So what I do is move away from you
It helps me escape my emotions,
Turn them latent for the time being;
Yet your face, flashes out of nowhere
Breaking the barrier of my mind.
I don’t miss you now .
Appreciating the distance separating us ,
I feel for you the same ,
There’s no one else I care for ,
You are the one whom I can see ,
Everywhere i turn its only you ;
The bond between us is stronger now .
He had a bad dream and didn’t know what to do , until he saw her smile .It lifted up his mood .